Never Once in My Life

...
have I seen such a magnificent child.
Hair flowing with the air.
Skin as beautiful as a late noon sunset.
Georgeous eyes that appear of pure greatness.
Such a child deserves more honor than to be
just acknowleged.
Most people don't view the same man I treuly believe
is magnificent from head to toe.
People have no idea that I truely feel this way.
If they knew they would only judge
so its better to just sit and fake.
If the world wasn't such a cruel place
we could be in a happy place.
Since we must sit and fake all of this make no sense.
If I told you about the real me you would
finally see the "REAL" me.
Judge me if you wish for I shall not care.
I know that I love my life,
love my love,
and don't care what the world thinks.
Haters are to hate and feast on the problems
of the world.
Which the good hearted and loving men
of the world love and laugh.

Sit and Wonder....

I sit and Wonder....
Wonder what it would be like
If me and him could be together.
I wonder if he feels it too.
The magnificent man, just sits and gazes,
As I stare in pure amazement.
His minor imperfections don't matter a thing, cause all I care about is his amazing mind.
Is it sad I sit and gaze, without the phrase I wish he say. The 3 words "I love you!" Are all I dare wish he say. Kiss me on my stubborn lips.
Make my heart whole again.
Hold my hand and walk with me as my heart gets fixed again.
Leave me and I'll never live the life I had before. Touch me here, love me there, be in my heart everywhere.

As you have just read this, it is about a person that truely means a lot to me! This one person is all I think about. :)

Matthew (MATEO)

The past couple of days have been rough. All the stuff that's going that most people don't know about is really started to take its toll on me. There are only a few people in my life that actually understand my life. Its a lot of drama and stuff that just keeps me down. Like I said in my last blog the things in my life are these "fake loves". I told myself to not to let them get to me but my FOOLISH brain let's them do it! It happened and then my heart was broken. I got really really sad and started to hate this person! I can't belie that I even thought I could hate them. I have fallen head over heels for one of these fake loves. What is going wrong that makes me do this?? I never know when its real or when its fake. I only wish that I could take things slow. But its almost impossible for me, I wish there was like this implanted reminder to take it slow, because I honestly want to but just simply forget! I just have the WANT that is coming up as a NEED to have love. I have no clue why I want this but its just something that I dream about and want this. I just only hope that I don't get played and became one of those that get broken hearted and torn into a million pieces!

love? or a greedy behavior

Have you ever liked yet again loved someone that you have never really gotten to know? Most would say no. But my life is totally opposite.most people can find love fairly easy. I cannot. The main problem..... I'm much different than every other guy. What I'm trying to say is that my greedy heart is overcoming my brain and leading me to believe love will never find me! then when I finally find some, I feel like I fall in love with them. When actually in fact its only a minor crush. I hate that feeling!!!! I want love to find me and finally make me happy. But that must be something too hard to ask for?? It makes me really cotemplate my plans being here! Am I here just to find a fake love, and never to find one?? I just want to find one and "truely be happy"! I fall so hard for these fake love's that when there over, I practically kill myself over it! I don't undserstand why I'm falling so deeply in love why can't I do it for real! I just want someone to hold and always be there for me! Yea, friends will always be there, but only your true friends. When you have very few "TRUE" friends its hard to have someone to go to! Love is a powerful and captivating experience and I shall only wish to experience it myself. I hope soon and VERY soon, I can experience it.

I love ya guys,
Matthew :)

A Just State of Being

Dear Blog Readers,

As this being my first blog I'm going to introduce myself to y'all! I'm 16 years old and live in Charleston, SC. My dream job which I plan on pursuing is to become an Air Traffic Controller. I plan on getting my certifications with the FAA all throughout college. Ok! Time to actually start blogging my feelings! So...here we go!

Hate! Some people say that hate is such a strong word! To me, hate is just another word. Some people may take it to far and go over the limit and really hurt someone with a word but If your going to do that it seems senseless. Hurting someone just to do it seems quite pointless to me! Why would you want to hurt someone just knowing that you could. Example, my cousin Madison(8 years old) is rude to everyone that walks in front of your face! I have been staying with her and her mom for about a month now! It has been pretty miserable seeing as how that she has been a complete ASS HOLE ever since I arrived. I know that everyone has limits and this little girl knows how to push someone over the limit! Just like anyone else in this world I can only handle so much rudeness! It comes to a point where it just has gone on for long enough! Where it starts to really annoy you and it really starts to get your nerves on edge. The reason I get so hyped up is that her mom never disciplines her! I know I would and just about everyone else that grew up with strict parents would have torn their ass up! See now this little one has gone through some hard times in her life! Her parents are going through a brutal divorce and all of that! But still if she would have been taught the right ways to do things she would not be acting like this at such an older age. My thoughts are that if you are going to teach your children not to be courteous and polite citizens of America than why should you have kids? People that are rude and inconsiderate are not normally successful people! If you are reading this and this fits your life I challenge you to change the ways your living and live a live that is pleasant!

Sincerely,
Matthew Montgomery
mb.montgomery@comcast.net